Christian, your being “okay” with God is forever secure and out of your reach. You cannot improve it, you cannot worsen it, you cannot change it. It’s perfect. 100% stellar. Jesus earned it, and He did pretty well, didn’t He? And He gave it to you. Not only has Jesus’ resurrection made you as having never once sinned—you’re a sin virgin—but He has made you as having always done everything perfectly right. That is your past and that is your future, because of Jesus.
Yeah, you actually are a perfectionist. You’ve been given a score of 100% on every test, all of the time. That is justification. (See Romans 5:25, and 7:14-20.)